妓女有很多种。 There are many kinds of whores.
虔诚的人，他们喜欢跪在地上。 The prayerful, they like to get down on their knees.
贪婪的人，他们抢走同事的顾客。 The greedy, they snatch their colleague’s customers.
性狂，他们痴迷于性。 The sex-crazed, they're obsessed with sex.
那些认为这只是一份工作，与个人无关的人。 Those who believe it’s just a job, nothing personal.
那些一直说这只是暂时的人。 Those who keep saying it’s only temporary.
还有那些不断爱上客户的人。 And those who keep falling in love with their clients.
他们一直希望从此过上幸福的生活。 They keep hoping for a happily ever after.
我没有这样的幻想。 I harbor no such illusions.
我知道一旦我们的客户凌驾于我们之上， I know that once our customers get on top of us,
我们之间没有区别。 there’s no difference between us.
我们大多数人都使用别名。 Most of us use aliases.
黛西。梅布尔。珍贵的。 Daisy. Mabel. Precious.
不是我。我用我的真名。 Not me. I use my real name.
我是阿尔玛。 I'm Alma.
嗨,小君! Hi, Jun!
晚上好，女士! Good evening ma’am!
我喜欢你总是很准时! I love that you’re always on time!
当然!时间是金。 Of course! Time is gold.
妓女到底是什么? What’s a whore anyway?
这些天，你能把我们分开吗? These days, can you tell us apart?
如果我坐在你旁边，你能看出来我是个妓女吗? If I sat next to you, could you tell I’m a whore?
是遗传的吗? Is it hereditary?
命运吗?一种诅咒? Fate? A curse?
还是像任何随机的事情? Or just like any random thing?
你，你注定要成为一名工程师。 You, you’re destined to become an engineer.
你，老师。 You, a teacher.
而你，你会变成… And you there, you’ll become a...
妓女。 whore.
Chona。我最好的朋友。 Chona. My best friend.
当有人要求3p时，我的首选。 My go-to when someone asks for a threesome.
今晚可能是最后一次了。 Tonight might be my last.
卡尔文给我的签证申请就要被批准了! Calvin’s petition for my visa is about to be granted!
我都等不及了! I can’t wait!
她不想在日本成为一名艺人。 Chona didn't want to become an entertainer in Japan.
合同很短，而且有太多的恐怖故事。 Contracts were short and there were too many horror stories.
所以她同意嫁给一个老美国人，他会带她去美国 So she agreed to marry an old American who’ll bring her to the U.S.
我需要一个新搭档。 I need a new partner.
她过去常陪我玩三人行。 She used to accompany me for threesomes.
我和她在一起真的很舒服。 I was really comfortable with her.
嗨。 Hi.
-我想你了。-你好吗? - I missed you. - How are you doing?
你点菜了吗? Did you order?
我有三个常客。 I have three regulars.
我给每一个都取了一个爱称。 I have a pet name for each one.
这是洛佩兹先生。 Meet Mr. Lopez.
我叫他老虎乔。 I call him Tiger Joe.
虎乔是一个富有的律师。 Tiger Joe is a rich lawyer.
他喜欢角色扮演。 He’s into role playing.
他看到我变成不同的女人就很开心。 He gets off on seeing me become different women.
这是你第一次来吗? Is it your first time?
我喜欢你痛苦的样子。 I like it when you’re in pain.
他喜欢我们接吻时血的味道。 He likes the taste of blood when we kiss.
他喜欢大镜子，在那里他可以看到自己。 He likes big mirrors where he can watch himself.
当我看着自己的倒影时，一切都像是幻想。 When I look at our reflection, everything seems like a fantasy.
这就像是一种幻想。 It's like make believe.
这让他觉得自己很强大。 It makes him feel powerful.
就像他是“男人”一样。 Like he’s "the man".
我让他随心所欲。只要报酬让我满意就行。 I let him do as he pleases. As long as the pay pleases me.
我多加了一点。 I added a little extra.
再打几拳，我就能买我梦想中的车了。 A few more punches and I can buy my dream car.
这位是JC先生，我叫他马。 This one’s Mr. JC, whom I call Horse.
他很醉，但在床上很无聊。 He’s hung, but boring in bed.
他是个早泄者。 He’s a premature ejaculator.
如果这是一场赛马，他会是赢家。 If this were a horse race, he’d be a winner.
他比其他人都早到达终点线。 He gets to the finish line before everyone else.
谢谢你！ Thank you!
我很抱歉。 I’m sorry.
没关系。其实很可爱， It’s okay. It’s cute actually,
你总是那么兴奋。 how excited you always are.
再见。 See you again.
再见! Bye!
和米格尔。我叫他小狗狗。 And Miguel. I call him Puppy Dog.
他深深地爱上了我。 He’s head over heels in love with me.
他总是跟着我。 He's always following me around.
他一直等到打烊时间。 He waits until closing time.
这就是为什么他上课时睡着了。 That’s why he falls asleep during his classes.
他没钱了，所以我给他免费赠品。 He’s broke, so I give him freebies.
脱掉你的衣服。 Take off your clothes.
这对你不公平。我没有钱。 It’s unfair to you. I have no money.
我要你付钱了吗? Did I ask you to pay?
我和其他人赚得很多。 I make plenty with the others.
再说，你人很好。现在把它全脱了。 Besides, you’re sweet. Now take it all off.
我们又不是没做过这种事。 It’s not like we haven’t done this before.
每一次都像第一次。 Each time is like the first time.
因为我爱你。 Because I love you.
爱情真是个累赘。 Love is such a drag.
来吧。 Come on.
-你要我帮你脱衣服吗?——不!我来做。 - You want me to undress you? - No! I’ll do it.
你们现在都长大了! You’re all grown up now!
你又来了。 There you go again.
你表现得好像从来没见过我裸体似的! You act as if you’ve never seen me naked!
每次都像是我的第一次。 Each time is like my first.
这就是为什么我不会坠入爱河。它会让你变傻。 That’s why I don’t fall in love. It makes you stupid.
——真的吗?你不喝酒?-是的。 - Really? You don't drink? - Yeah.
即使我的顾客坚持。 Even if my customer insists.
女士们在酒吧喝酒?里面没有酒精 The ladies drink at the bar? There’s no alcohol in it.
我也不吸毒。 I don’t do drugs either.
不过我有时也抽烟。 I do smoke sometimes though.
我从来不想失去控制。 I never want to lose control.
这是我最讨厌的。 That’s the thing I hate the most.
失去对自己的控制。 Losing control over myself.
我是你见过的第一个不喝酒不吸毒的妓女吗? Am I the first whore you’ve seen who doesn’t drink, or do drugs?
我也不做那些事。 I also don’t do those things.
我有时会喝酒。只是做做样子。 I drink, sometimes. Just for show.
我也不吸毒。 I also don't do drugs.
那我们就一样了! Then we’re the same!
我不是他的女朋友。但我也不是他的妓女。 I’m not his girlfriend. But neither am I his whore.
我们不在一起了。 We’re not together.
我们只是炮友。 We’re simply friends with benefits.
-这个多少钱?- 50比索，先生。 - How much is this? - Fifty pesos sir.
好吧，我来一杯。谢谢! Okay, I’ll have one. Thanks!
哇。谢谢你！ Wow. Thank you.
-谢谢，先生-走吧 - Thank you Sir. - Let's go.
你喜欢吗? You like it?
那一年是1999年。 The year was 1999.
他们说，这是一个千年的终结。一千年。 The end of a millennium, they said. A thousand years.
他们说世界将在元旦那天结束。 They said the world will end on New Year's Day.
飞机将从天上掉下来。 Planes will fall from the sky.
手机将停止工作。灯要灭了。 Phones will stop working. The lights will go out.
谢谢你！ Thank you.
在一次采访中，该组织的领导人承诺 In an interview, the leader of the group promised
解释原因和他们决心的重要性。 to explain the cause and the importance of their resolve.
在大雅台，一群老人 In Tagaytay, a group of elderly people
一直在山顶露营。 had been camping out at the top of the mountain.
他们说，那是他们等待世界末日的地方。 That’s where they’ll wait out doomsday, they said.
我真的不在乎。对我来说，每天都像是世界末日。 I don't really care. Everyday feels like the end of the world for me.
我带你回家。我们叫辆出租车吧。 I’ll bring you home. Let’s get a cab.
不。我还是想四处走走。 No. I still feel like walking around.
好吧，到时候我和你一起去。 Okay, I’ll join you then.
不。我宁愿一个人呆着。 No. I’d rather be alone.
你确定吗? Are you sure?
是的，我很好。 Yes, I’m good.
再见! Bye!
我爱你。 I love you.
好吧。 Okay.
你是狗吗? Are you a dog?
你一直跟着我。 You keep following me.
你是谁? Who are you?
你是虎乔的妻子吗? Are you the wife of Tiger Joe?
阿尔玛，我是希拉。 Alma, I’m Sheila.
我是你妈妈。 I’m your mother.
-我没有妈妈!-你有。 - I don’t have a mother! - You do.
自从我把你卖了，23年过去了。 Twenty-three years have passed since I sold you.
你骗不了我。你只是需要钱，那就另找出路吧。 You can't fool me. You just need money, so bark up another tree.
我也是个酒吧女郎。 I was also a bar girl.
但我的日子屈指可数了。我生你的时候已经30多岁了。 But my days were numbered. I was past 30 when I had you.
我想堕胎，但我对上帝的恐惧阻止了我。 I wanted to have an abortion but my fear in God stopped me.
所以我生下了你。 So I gave birth to you.
我不想让你的生活像我一样一团糟， I didn’t want your life to be as messed up as mine,
所以我放弃了你 so I gave you up.
我以为你会过得比我好。 I thought that you’d live a better life than me.
事实证明你是对的。看看现在的我。 Turns out you were right. Look at me now.
你说你出卖了我。 You said you sold me.
这么说，你从我身上赚了钱? So, you made money from me?
我需要活下去。 I needed to live.
既然我要放弃你， And since I was giving you up,
我觉得我得到报酬才公平。 I thought it was only fair that I got paid.
那你为什么来找我? So why’d you look for me?
你希望我现在有钱了，还会爱你，关心你吗? Were you hoping that I’d love you and care for you now that I have money?
我不需要你。 I don’t need you.
我听腻了故事。 I’m tired of stories.
每天晚上我都能听到很多。 Every night I hear lots of them.
而我最讨厌的故事是我自己的。 And the story that I hate the most is my own.
我的签证被批准了! My visa is approved!
你好,美国! Hello, America!
你要在那里过圣诞节? You’re spending Christmas there?
是的。那个混蛋卡尔文耍了我。他说我没有被批准。 Yes. That asshole Calvin played me. He said I wasn’t approved.
我痛哭流涕!然后，他收回了，说他是开玩笑的。 I bawled my eyes out! Then, he took it back, said he was joking.
我的签证被批准了。 My visa has been approved.
我真想一拳打在他脸上，但我太高兴了。 I wanted to punch him in the face, but I was too happy.
所以我给了他一整晚的免费赠品。 So I gave him a freebie all night long.
那么，你呢?你一个人能行吗? So, what about you? Will you be alright on your own?
我会找人代替你。 I’ll look for your replacement.
现在我真为你高兴。 Right now I’m just so happy for you.
你应该是! You should be!
对不起。 Sorry.
没关系。 It’s okay.
我妻子说我总是把她晾在一边，所以现在她想离开我。 My wife says I always leave her hanging, so now she wants to leave me.
我什么都试过了。 I’ve tried everything.
我每天服用锌和镁。 I take zinc and magnesium daily.
我用了厚厚的避孕套来抑制这种感觉。 I used thick condoms just to dull the sensation.
我甚至做了一个祭坛，把圣人放在上面来平息我的兴奋。 I even made an altar and put saints on it to quell my excitement.
我试了两种暂停挤压法 I tried both the pause-squeeze
还有启停技术。 and the stop-start techniques.
毫无效果。 Nothing worked.
我瞥了一眼我妻子的侧胸， I get a glimpse of my wife’s side boob,
然后我开始跳舞。 and I start cumming.
一定有解药。 There must be a cure.
我想这是从我十几岁的时候开始的。 I think it started when I was barely in my teens.
每当我手淫时，我就担心我父亲会抓住我。 Whenever I masturbated, I worried that my father would catch me.
所以我学会了快速做，并习惯了它。 So I learned to do it fast, and got used to it.
世界末日就要来了，但我会更早死去。 The end of the world is coming, but I’ll cum even sooner.
不要失去希望。 Don’t lose hope.
哪里有鸡巴，哪里就有希望。 Wherever there’s a dick, there’s hope.
你为什么要揍他? Why did you have him beaten up?
我知道他会告发我的。 I knew he’d tell on me.
我问你为什么? I asked you why?
我希望只有我们俩。 I want it to be just us.
你在说什么? What are you talking about?
你知道我是做什么的。 You know what I do for a living.
你的小狗狗是不同的。 Your Puppy Dog is different.
他一直吹嘘你是他的女朋友。 He’s been bragging that you’re his girlfriend.
这不是真的。但即使是，对你又有什么关系? That's not true. But even if it were, what’s it to you?
我不知道。 I don't know.
我只是觉得他该被揍一顿。 I just thought he needed beating up.
我不想让你再见他了，好吗? I don’t want you seeing him anymore, okay?
不可能。 No way.
我给你双倍的工资。 I’ll double your pay.
把它加入你的汽车基金。 Add it to your car fund.
让我们开始吧。时钟的滴答声。 Let’s get started. Clock’s ticking.
唱给我听。 Sing to me.
♬不会注意到时间 ♪ Won’t notice the time ♪
♬不会注意到它路过 ♪ Won’t notice it passing by ♪
♬即使彻夜难眠 ♪ Even all through the night ♪
♬看着我，紧紧握住我的手 ♪ Look at me and hold my hand tightly ♪
♬即使彻夜难眠 ♪ Even all through the night ♪
♬看着我，紧紧握住我的手 ♪ Look at me and hold my hand tightly ♪
♬即使彻夜难眠 ♪ Even all through the night ♪
♪和你在一起，感觉就像永远 ♪ With you, it feels like forever ♪
♬不会注意到时间 ♪ Won’t notice the time ♪
♬不会注意到它路过 ♪ Won’t notice it passing by ♪
♬看着我，紧紧握住我的手 ♪ Look at me and hold my hand tightly ♪
♬不会注意到时间 ♪ Won’t notice the time ♪
你确定你没事吗? You sure you’re okay?
我们还能见面。 We can still see each other.
秘密。 Secretly.
请不要打断我。 Just don’t cut me off, please.
我不会的。 I won’t.
你不生我的气吗? You’re not mad at me?
我不是。 I’m not.
我爱你。 I love you.
好吧。 Okay.
等一下，停在这里。 Wait a minute, stop here.
希拉? Sheila?
希拉。希拉，醒醒。 Sheila. Sheila, wake up.
希拉，醒醒。 Sheila, wake up.
你是谁啊?你是谁? Who are you, huh? Who are you?
你为什么睡在这里? Why are you sleeping here?
我在这里做什么?你是谁? What am I doing here? Who are you?
你打算对我做什么? What are you planning to do to me?
不! No!
你是谁? Who are you?
你在开玩笑吗? Are you joking right now?
早发性阿尔茨海默病。 Early onset Alzheimer's.
老年? Senile?
我不是老糊涂!我们走吧。 I’m not senile! Let’s go already.
她会把你榨干的。 She’ll just milk you dry.
你还在观察中。 You’re still under observation.
-你需要看医生。-我没病。 - You need a doctor. - I am not sick.
把这个。照顾好她。 Take this. Take care of her.
你想不想生病由你决定。 Up to you if you want to get sick.
别把我扯进来。 Just leave me out of it.
我们去找你父亲吧。 Let’s look for your father.
你是与众不同的。现在你说起我父亲。 You’re something else. Now you talk about my father.
如果我真的得了老年痴呆症， If it’s true that I have Alzheimer’s,
趁现在还来得及，我想再见到他。 I want to see him again before it’s too late.
为什么这是我的问题? And why is that my problem?
我根本不在乎他。 I don’t even care about him.
小君! Jun!
吕宋岛部分地区发生6.8级地震 A magnitude of 6.8 earthquake hit parts of Luzon
震中位于Pangasinan的Lingayen附近， with the epicenter located near Lingayen, Pangasinan,
杀了六个人… killing six people...
死亡的消息带来了圣诞节。 News of death ushers Christmas in.
一辆公共汽车从山上掉了下来，19人死亡。 A bus fell off the mountain, 19 dead.
马萨特发生地震，5人死亡。 Earthquake in Masbate, five dead.
宿务的一群青少年在玩俄罗斯轮盘赌。 A group of teenagers in Cebu played Russian roulette.
庆祝世界末日的游戏。 A game to celebrate the end of the world.
三个死了。 Three died.
就连这个破酒吧也有死神光顾。发生了枪战。两个死亡。 Death visited even this shitty bar. There was a shootout. Two died.
我们的经理受到牵连。 Our manager was implicated.
酒吧被关闭了。至少现在是这样。 The bar was shut down. At least for now.
世界上的人正在被淘汰吗? Are the people of the world being culled?
像我这样的人会怎么样? What will happen to those like me?
我怀疑天堂是否有我们的位置。 I doubt that heaven has a place for us.
乔娜写信给我。 Chona wrote to me.
她说她在美国很快乐。 She said she was happy in America.
终于，她找到了幸福。 At long last, she found happiness.
最后，马的妻子怀孕了。 Finally Horse’s wife got pregnant.
她不会再离开他了。 She’s not leaving him anymore.
马高兴极了。他现在跑得更快了。 Horse couldn’t be happier. He cums even faster now.
虎乔和小狗和解了。 Tiger Joe and Puppy Dog have made peace.
别问我是怎么发生的，我不知道。 Don’t ask me how it happened, I don’t know.
也许这是世界末日的奥秘之一。 Maybe it’s one of the mysteries of the end of the world.
在所有的圣诞颂歌中，我最讨厌《铃儿响叮当》。 Out of all the Christmas carols, I hate Jingle Bells the most.
就好像菲律宾这里下雪了一样! As if it snows here in the Philippines!
除了叮当声，铃铛还能做什么? And what else are bells supposed to do but jingle?
你说对了。我同意。 You got me. I agree.
我们要去找你父亲吗? We’re going to look for your father?
确定。如果这样能让你不再烦我。 Sure. If that will get you off my back.
谢谢你！ Thank you.
对什么? What for?
谢谢你同意帮忙。 For agreeing to help.
那么，我们从哪里开始找呢? So, where do we start looking?
啊…在巴丹半岛。 Ah... in Bataan.
妈的，我还以为会在马尼拉找呢。 Shit, I thought we’d be looking here in Manila.
我们可以在那里过夜。 We can spend a night there.
我们为什么不在那里迎接新年呢? Why don’t we greet the New Year there?
你以为我有钱? You think I’m rich?
反正酒吧也关门了。你不需要出现。 The bar is closed anyway. You don’t have to show up.
我们走吧。 Let’s go.
你知道我们能在巴丹的什么地方找到他吗? Do you know where in Bataan we’ll find him?
在度假胜地。 In a resort.
但我真的不记得在哪里了。 But I don’t really remember where.
你都想明白了。 You got this all figured out.
我们就是在那里认识的，你父亲和我。 That’s where we met, your father and I.
他总是给我带椰子。 He always brought me coconuts.
我不确定他是渔夫还是码头工人。 I’m not sure if he was a fisherman or a dock worker.
但是他告诉我 But he told me
他就是那个会爬到树上摘椰子的人。 that he’s the one who’ll climb the tree just to get the coconuts.
我们要去哪里? Where are we going?
巴丹半岛。 To Bataan.
啊…巴丹半岛。 Ah... to Bataan.
巴丹半岛。 Bataan.
你撒尿吗? You peed?
我撒尿。我撒尿。 I peed. I peed.
没关系，别担心。我们会讲到的。 It’s okay, don’t worry about it. We’ll cover it.
我撒尿。我撒尿。 I peed. I peed.
-振作起来。-我尿了。我撒尿。 - Cheer up. - I peed. I peed.
我撒尿…… I peed...
没关系。别担心。 It’s okay. Don’t worry about it.
我撒尿。我撒尿。 I peed. I peed.
使振奋 Cheer up.
它会干的，好吗? It will dry, okay?
没关系…… It’s okay...
我们要去巴丹岛? We’re going to Bataan?
是的,巴丹半岛。 Yes, Bataan.
多少钱? How much?
女士，这是钥匙。 Ma’am, here’s the key.
那是谁? Who’s that?
那是克鲁兹先生。老板的儿子。 That’s Mr. Cruz. The owner’s son.
我明白了。 I see.
来，去换衣服。你臭。 Come, go change. You stink.
去换衣服你臭。 Go change. You stink.
我想要那个绿色的。 I want the green one.
你已经穿上了。这个很好。 You’re already wearing it. This one's fine.
我们将呆两天。 We’ll stay for two days.
如果找不到那个巴东，我们就离开。 If we don’t find that Badong, we leave.
我想在新年前回到马尼拉。 I want to be back in Manila before New Year’s.
打扰一下，你认识叫巴东的人吗? Excuse me, do you know anyone named Badong?
对不起，这里没有巴东。 Sorry, but there’s no Badong here.
他在这里呆了很长时间。大约20年了。 He stayed here for a long time. For about 20 years.
他和我差不多大。 He’s around the same age as me.
去城市的另一边试试。也许他在那里。 Try the other side of town. Maybe he’s there.
年轻的如何? How young?
三个月。 Three months.
我记得有个送鱼的巴东。 I remember a Badong who used to deliver fish.
一定是他!他身上总有股腥味。 That must be him! He always smelled fishy.
但他现在肯定已经80岁了，搬到了马尼拉。 But he must be 80 years old now and moved to Manila.
-不可能是他——谢谢。 - It can’t be him. - Thanks.
关于那个混蛋你还记得什么? What else do you remember about that asshole?
你为什么要骂他?你根本不了解他。 Why are you calling him names? You don’t even know him.
你还记得什么? So what else do you remember?
蝴蝶。他喜欢让我紧张。 Butterflies. He likes giving me butterflies.
怎么啦？ What?
啊!这根本没用! Ugh! That’s not even helpful!
怎么，我们要找一个喜欢蝴蝶的人吗? What, we look for someone who’s into butterflies?
希拉! Sheila!
你的信息太随机了，一点用都没有。 Your information is so random, it’s useless.
我们要找一个喜欢蝴蝶的人吗? Are we gonna look for someone who’s into butterflies?
嘿! Hey!
停! Stop!
无论什么。 Whatever.
希拉! Sheila!
希拉。 Sheila.
你还好吗? Are you okay?
走吧，我们回度假村吧。 Come on, let's go back to the resort.
来了。 Come.
抓紧我。 Hold onto me.
来吧。 Come on.
缓慢。 Slowly.
你感觉好点了吗? Do you feel better?
那是你的房间。这是我的。 That's your room. This here is mine.
为什么不合住一个房间呢? Why not share a room?
来吧。 Come on.
好吧。 Okay.
阿尔玛…… Alma...
阿尔玛? Alma?
为什么? Why?
你还能接受我做你妈妈吗? Can you still accept me as your mother?
我们是来找我父亲的。 We’re here to find my father.
但是你不能接受我吗? But can’t you accept me?
听到你叫我"妈妈"的感觉一定很好 I bet it would feel good to hear you call me “Mom."
去睡觉吧。 Go to sleep.
你需要足够的休息。 You need enough rest.
养大你的人对你好吗? Were they good to you, the ones who raised you?
他们是什么样子的? What were they like?
我的记忆越来越少了。 My memories are getting fewer and fewer.
我开始健忘了。 I’m becoming forgetful.
但有一段记忆我永远都不想忘记。 But there’s one memory that I never want to forget.
那是什么? What’s that?
我们在一起的短暂时光。在我卖给你之前。 The little time we were together. Before I sold you.
你总是在我的怀里。 You were always in my arms.
我在给你喂奶。你胃口真大。 I was breastfeeding you. You had such an appetite.
我没奶的时候你会咬我的乳头。 You’d bite my nipple when I ran out of milk.
让我们的睡眠。 Let’s sleep.
我们明天一早出发。 We’ll start early tomorrow.
有一对夫妇想收养一个孩子。 There was a couple looking to adopt a child.
他们很富裕，笃信宗教。 They were well-off and religious.
总是去教堂。 Always going to church.
我告诉自己要把你交给他们。 I told myself that I’d give you to them.
至少我的孩子能接近天堂。 At least my child will be close to heaven.
天堂吗? Heaven?
他们对你好吗? Were they good to you?
他们怎么样?我在问你问题。 How are they? I’m asking you a question.
我从他们身边跑开了。在我13岁之前。 I ran away from them. Before I turned 13.
我不想谈这个。 I don’t want to talk about it.
继续你的故事。 Continue your story.
我宁愿不要。 I'd rather not.
它让我头疼。 It’s giving me a headache.
谁叫我阿尔玛? Who named me Alma?
你还是他们? You or them?
我。 Me.
它的意思是灵魂。 It means soul.
我明白了。你出卖了灵魂。 I get it. You sold your soul.
不。 Nope.
我不这么认为。 I wouldn’t say that.
你现在住在哪里? Where do you live now?
你有丈夫吗? Do you have a husband?
我的头在痛。 My head is throbbing.
你的问题听起来像警察。 You sound like the cops with your questions.
你曾经被警察逮捕过吗? Have you ever been arrested by the police?
你是如何谋生的? How do you make a living?
在街上闲逛，等着顾客。 By loitering in the streets, waiting for a customer.
我挣得够多了。 I earn enough.
他们以前叫我吹口哨的婊子。 They used to call me the catcalling whore.
狗屎! Shit!
你是冠军! You’re the champ!
谢谢你！ Thank you.
他经常来这里。 He frequents here.
你还记得我的巴东吗?之前和我在一起的那个人? Do you remember my Badong? The guy I was with before?
巴东吗? Badong?
对不起，我真的不记得了。 Sorry, it really doesn’t ring a bell.
你认识一个叫巴东的人吗? Do you know anyone named Badong?
我不知道。对不起。去那边问问。 I don’t know. Sorry. Try asking over there.
我不知道什么巴东。试着在那里的某个地方问。 I don’t know any Badong. Try asking somewhere there.
你记得准确吗? Are you remembering things accurately?
我们到处都找过了。 We’ve searched all over.
如果不是巴丹岛呢? What if it’s not Bataan?
可能是吧。 Could be.
可以吗?所以你不确定? Could be? So you’re not sure?
我知道它就在这里。 I know it’s here.
但你不确定? But you’re not sure?
该死的。也许巴东也不是真的。 Damn it. Maybe Badong isn’t real too.
真的有巴东吗? Was there really a Badong?
我就知道!没有巴东。 I knew it! There’s no Badong.
你编出来的! You made him up!
一群人耍了你 A bunch of guys screwed you
你甚至不知道他们谁是我父亲。 and you don’t even know which of them is my father.
骗子! Liar!
你浪费了我的时间! You wasted my time!
我不是骗子! I’m not a liar!
不，你是个骗子! No, you're a liar!
作为母亲，你毫无价值。 You’re worthless as a mother.
你真是个没用的女儿! You’re a worthless daughter!
你把我赶出去了，仅此而已。 You pushed me out, that's all.
如果不是我，你不会在这里。 You wouldn’t be here if not for me.
我希望我有一个不同的妈妈! I wish I had a different mother!
我希望我有一个不一样的女儿! I wish I had a different daughter!
妓女! Whore!
你这个该死的婊子! You're a damn whore!
该死的你! Damn you!
没有更多! No more!
别打我。 Don’t hit me.
我总是挨打。 I’m always being beaten up.
是谁干的? Who did?
我的母亲 My mother
一直打我。 keeps on beating me up.
她总有办法伤害我 She always found a way to hurt me
每次她喝醉了。 everytime she got drunk.
她总是打我，把我锁起来，或者把我绑起来。 She’d always beat me, lock me, or tie me up.
后来有一天，詹姆走进我的房间。那时我15岁。 Then one day, Jaime came into my room. I was 15.
杰米是谁? Who’s Jaime?
和她同居的那个男人。 The man she was shacking up with.
他强奸了我。 He raped me.
他强奸了我，但我妈妈却生我的气。 He raped me but my mom got angry at me instead.
“我是个调情的人，”她说。 I was a flirt, she said.
她真的很生气。 She was really angry.
从那时起，她开始把我卖给其他男人， That’s when she started selling me to many other men,
对我们的邻居，任何人都可以。她把我变成了妓女。 to our neighbor, any man. She made me a whore.
有时她甚至不收钱。 Sometimes she wouldn't even charge for it.
但她失败了。他从未停止过。 But she failed. He never stopped.
其他人利用了我。但詹姆也是。 Other men used me. But so did Jaime.
他们都把我变成了妓女。 All of them made me a whore.
他们毁了我。 They ruined me.
他们毁了我，把我变成了妓女。 They ruined me and made me a whore.
当你走进我的生活，我决定。 And when you came into my life, I decided.
我急切地希望你离开我的生活，因为我太害怕了。 I eagerly want you out of my life because I am so scared.
所以害怕…我的头脑很疲惫，我很害怕。 So scared... My mind is exhausted, I am very scared.
我告诉自己，不……不。 I told myself, no... No.
我得让你走了。 I need to let you go.
我不想成为我的母亲。不是对你。 I didn’t want to become my mother. Not to you.
我妈妈对我做的事是无法让我痛苦的。 What my Mom did to me was beyond any pain.
我怕我也会这样对我的孩子，我不想做同样的事。 I’m afraid I might do it to my child, I don’t want to do the same.
我放弃你是因为 I gave you up because—
我将停止。 I’ll stop.
我将停止。我的头在痛。阻止它…… I’ll stop. My head is throbbing. Stop it...
快!我没有足够的时间。 Quick! I don’t have enough time.
-我来，我来-说吧。 - I’ll do it, I’ll do it. - Go ahead.
哦,男人。哦……神。 Oh, man. Oh... God.
我多加了一点。 I added a little extra.
你可以免费再住一天。就当这是我送给你的圣诞礼物吧。 And you can stay another day for free. Consider it my Christmas gift to you.
谢谢你！ Thank you.
阿尔玛，我能吻你吗? Alma, can I kiss you?
顺便问一下，你那老糊涂的母亲怎么样了? By the way, how’s your senile mother?
谢谢你! Thank you for this!
这是很早的早餐。 This is an early breakfast.
你昨晚出去了? You went out last night?
我敢打赌又在四处游荡。 On the prowl again, I bet.
有账单要付。 There are bills to pay.
我想保住我的汽车基金。 I want to keep my car fund intact.
我有个惊喜要给你。 I have a surprise for you.
什么惊喜? What surprise?
嘿，那是什么? Hey, what’s that?
圣诞礼物吗? Christmas gift?
哦，不，我什么也没给你! Oh no, I didn’t get you anything!
没关系。 It’s okay.
一条裙子吗? A dress?
它太漂亮了。 It’s so pretty.
这是我最喜欢的颜色! It’s my favorite color!
-你觉得呢?-很适合你，希拉。 - What do you think? - Looks good on you, Sheila.
你漂亮。 You’re pretty.
我打赌你年轻时一定很受顾客欢迎。 I bet you were a hit with the customers when you were young.
自然。 Naturally.
你的特长是什么? What’s your forte?
一切。 Everything.
但我的专长是甜味。 But my specialty was my sweetness.
在性爱中，一旦他们结束，就结束了。 In sex, once they finish, that’s it.
让他们不回来的原因是 What kept them from coming back is
我永不停息的甜蜜。 my never ending sweetness.
在你的常客中，你有最喜欢的吗? Among your regulars, did you have a favorite?
我做到了。 I did.
其中之一 One of them
拄着本不需要的拐杖走路。 walked with a cane he didn’t need.
一个戴着眼镜 One wore glasses
即使他的眼睛很好。 even if his eyes were fine.
我曾经有过一个追求者。 I once had a suitor.
每次我们做爱他都付钱。 He pays whenever we have sex.
他很有钱 He was loaded
但他并没有炫耀。 but he didn’t flaunt it.
他总是送我红玫瑰。 He always had red roses for me.
他让我觉得 He made me feel like
我值得被爱。 I was worthy of being loved.
他怎么了? What happened to him?
他消失了。 He disappeared.
消失得无影无踪。 Vanished without a trace.
他就不来了。 He just stopped coming.
再也没有他的消息。 Never heard from him again.
我花了好几个月才忘记他。 It took me months to get over him.
另一个总是让我在床上为他唱歌。 Another one always asked me to sing for him, on the bed.
他曾经有个女朋友，作为艺人去了日本。 He once had a girlfriend who went to Japan as an entertainer.
我连一个日文单词都不知道。 I don’t even know any Japanese words.
我知道中文版的一句台词。 I knew a line from a Chinese version.
那是在圣诞节期间， That was during the Christmas season,
所以我就这样唱…… so I sang like this...
叮叮当，叮叮当。一路叮当响。 Jingle bells, jingle bells. Jingle all the way.
啊，坐在一匹马的雪橇上是多么有趣啊! O, what fun it is to ride in a one-horse open sleigh, hey!
我和他一起去了。 I went along with him.
你把我卖了之后做了什么? What did you do after you sold me?
我径直去了一家餐馆，点了一整条火腿。 I went straight away to a restaurant and ordered a whole leg of ham.
我填饱肚子是为了把你从我的脑海里赶出去。 I stuffed myself to push you out of my thoughts.
第二天你想到我了吗? Did you think about me the next day?
不。 No.
我不得不为了生意张开双腿。 I had to open my legs for business.
你记得那次你突然出现在我的脑海里吗? You know the time you suddenly popped into my mind?
当生意不景气时。 When business slowed down.
我成了一个过气的人。 I became a has-been.
从那时起你开始住在我的脑海里免房租。 That’s when you started living in my head rent free.
我在想， I was thinking,
你能去哪儿呢? where could you be?
你怎么了? What happened to you?
我没法把你从我的脑海中抹去。 I couldn’t get you out of my head.
我想成为她的母亲 I want to be a mother to her
她从来都不是我的母亲。 who was never a mother to me.
我会照顾她的。 I’ll take care of her.
但我怎么能当母亲呢? But how can I be a mother when...
我都不知道当女儿是什么感觉? I don’t even know what it’s like to be a daughter?
回到马尼拉后离开我。 Leave me when we get back to Manila.
为什么? Why?
你要去哪里? Where are you going?
它只是… It’s just...
我想让我们分道扬镳。 I want us to go our separate ways.
把我忘了。 Forget me.
无稽之谈。你怎么了，希拉? Nonsense. What's gotten into you, Sheila?
你找到我了。现在你不想要我了? You found me. Now you don’t want me?
你又要离开我了? You’re leaving me again?
我不会允许的。 I won’t allow it.
等我们回到马尼拉，我们要去看你的医生。 When we get back to Manila we’re going to see your doctor.
我不想那样。 I don’t want that.
不。 No.
你知道，这种病无药可治。 You know, this illness has no cure.
情况只会变得更糟。 It’s only going to get worse.
这可能是诅咒或因果报应。 It’s probably a curse or karma.
我不想成为你的负担。 I don’t want to be a burden to you.
我决定我想要什么，不想要什么。 I decide what I want and don’t want.
你年轻的时候。 You’re young.
我完成了。你还在上升的路上。 I’m done. You’re still on your way up.
我不想拖累你。 I don’t want to drag you down.
没有人会拖累任何人。 Nobody’s dragging anybody down.
因为它们走高了。 Because they’re going high.
过你自己的生活。 Live your life.
别在我身上浪费时间。 Don’t waste it on me.
你不能走，就这样。我会照顾你的。 You’re not leaving and that’s it. I’ll take care of you.
你会怎么做? What will you do?
我大便后你能帮我擦屁股吗? Will you wipe my butt after I poop?
喂我，看着我吐东西? Feed me and watch me throw everything up?
每次我消失的时候都在找我? Look for me each time I disappear?
——不!我不想!-我不在乎! - No! I don’t want to! - I don’t care!
-我有!-照我说的做! - I do! - You’ll do as I say!
我们待在一起，你去看医生。讨论结束! We’ll stay together and you will see the doctor. End of discussion!
不! No!
我不想! I don’t want to!
明天我们再找巴东。 Tomorrow we look again for Badong.
我看到你包里有张照片。他是真实的。 I saw a photo inside your bag. He’s real.
我们会找到他的。 We’ll find him.
你确定不认识一个叫巴东的人吗? Are you sure you don’t know anyone named Badong?
是的。我不认识他。 Yes. I don’t know him.
好吧。谢谢你！ Okay. Thank you.
来吧。 Come on.
想放弃吗? Wanna give up?
如果他不在这里，我们就去别处找。 If he’s not here, we’ll look elsewhere.
我不知道还能去哪找。 I don’t know where else to look.
如果我们找不到他，那就这样吧。 If we don’t find him, so be it.
我们不需要他。 We don’t need him.
明天我们回马尼拉。 Tomorrow we go back to Manila.
等待。 Wait.
我们就待在这儿吧。 Let’s stay here.
让我们在这里过新年吧。只是一天而已。 Let’s spend New Year’s here. It’s just one day.
好吧。如果这是你想要的。 Okay. If that’s what you want.
来吧。 Come on.
如果顾客不能把它拿起来怎么办? What if the customer can’t get it up?
我骑他! I ride him!
如果不行，我就走人。去打手枪吧! If that doesn’t work, I leave. Go jack yourself off!
有人伤害过你吗? Has anyone ever hurt you?
我有虐待狂，这对我来说没什么。 I’ve had sadists and that’s okay with me.
只要他们付双倍的钱。 As long as they double the pay.
你爱上过他们中的任何一个吗? Have you fallen in love with any of them?
不。 No.
从来没有! Never!
我做到了。 I did.
总是这样。 Always.
只要他们说他们爱我，我的心就会融化。 All it took was them saying they loved me and my heart would melt.
我也爱你!我也爱你!永远不要离开我。 I love you too! I love you too! Don’t ever leave me.
你真有趣，妈妈。 You’re funny, Mom.
怎么了? What’s wrong?
听到你叫我"妈妈"的感觉真好 It feels so good to hear you call me “Mom.”
来了。 Come.
妈妈。 Mom.
你没必要这么做。我们明天就要走了。 You don’t have to do that. We’re leaving tomorrow.
我们不能用脏房子迎接新年。让我来吧。 We can’t greet the new year with a dirty house. Just let me do it.
她有段时间没发作了。 She hasn't had an attack in a while.
我希望她能好起来。 I hope she gets better.
希拉。 Sheila.
我是希拉。 I am Sheila.
我是希拉。 I’m Sheila.
我是谁? Who am I?
希拉……我是希拉。 Sheila... I am Sheila.
我是谁? Who am I?
我在哪儿? Where am I?
希拉。 Sheila.
我在哪儿? Where am I?
希拉。 Sheila.
我叫希拉。 My name is Sheila.
我在哪儿? Where am I?
我要去上班了。 I need to go to work.
开门! Open the door!
请开门好吗? Open the door, please?
不在这里。在这里。 Not here. Here.
人吗?请开门好吗? Someone? Open the door, please?
我害怕!打开门。 I’m afraid! Open the door.
妈妈? Mom?
-妈妈，你在那儿干什么?-我要进去。 - Mom, what are you doing there? - I’m going inside.
-那不是我们的房间。——没有。它在这里! - That’s not our room. - No. It’s here!
你为什么拿着一块肥皂? Why are you holding a bar of soap?
肥皂是什么?没有肥皂? What soap? There’s no soap?
不! No!
它是我的! It’s mine!
这是我的! This is mine!
它是我的! It’s mine!
我想进去。 I want to go inside.
但我不知道在哪里。 But I don’t know where.
妈妈,来了。来吧。 Mom, come. Come on.
跟我来。 Come with me.
你会帮我吗? You’ll help me?
是的。我会帮助你的。 Yes. I will help you.
-妈妈，我们的房间在这里。——不! - Mom, our room is here. - No!
你会帮我吗? You’ll help me?
是的。妈妈，过来。 Yes. Mom, come here.
——等待。-别这样。 - Wait. - Come on.
我不想。 I don’t want to.
不。我不想。 No. I don't want to.
不，你会把我关起来的。 No, you’re going to lock me up.
——什么?妈妈?——不! - What? Mom? - No!
不,不! No, no!
-我说了我不想。不。-妈，过来。来吧。 - I said I don’t want to. No. - Mom, come here. Come on.
我不想。不!不再...... I don't want to. No! Not anymore.
你要把我关起来 You’re going to lock me up,
然后揍我一顿! and beat me up!
我不想!不。 I don’t want to! No.
我不想再这样了。我不想。 I don’t want to anymore. I don’t want to.
不。你要把我关起来，把我关起来! No. You’re going to confine me, lock me up!
不，你会把我关起来的。 No, you’re going to lock me up.
不。 No.
妈妈，是我，阿尔玛。 Mom, it’s me, Alma.
我是你的女儿。我是阿尔玛。 I am your daughter. I am Alma.
你要把我关起来 You’re going to lock me up
和一群男人在一起… with a bunch of other men...
你邪恶了! You’re evil!
你不怀好意! You’re up to no good!
你是邪恶的。 You’re evil.
妈妈,没有。我是阿尔玛。 Mom, no. I am Alma.
阿尔玛? Alma?
我的阿尔玛。 My Alma.
阿尔玛。 Alma.
巴东。 Badong.
我将给我们的女儿取名阿尔玛。 I will name our daughter Alma.
我已经告诉过你了吗? Have I already told you?
阿尔玛呢? About Alma?
我要生孩子了。 I am about to give birth.
看看我的肚子，好大啊。 Look at my belly, it’s huge.
我怀孕了。 I am pregnant.
巴东，别离开我。帮帮我，巴东。 Badong, don’t leave me. Help me, Badong.
是的，妈妈，我会帮你的。 Yes Mom, I will help you.
-过来休息一下。-答应我我们会照顾好阿尔玛。 - Come and get some rest. - Promise me we'll take care of Alma.
我头疼。 My head hurts.
来吧，妈妈。 Come now, Mom.
巴东…… Badong...
巴东……请不要离开我，巴东! Badong... Please don’t leave me, Badong!
巴东…… Badong...
趁我还认得你，我该走了 I should leave while I still recognize you
我的孩子。 my child.
在我忘记你是谁之前。 Before I forget who you are.
妈妈? Mom?
妈妈? ! Mom?!
妈妈? Mom?
妈妈! Mom!
妈妈…… Mom...
酒吧重新开张了， The bar re-opened,
我去上班了。 I went to work.
新年来了又走，世界并没有结束。 New Year’s came and went, the world didn’t end.
虎乔留下来了。 Tiger Joe stuck around.
很快我们将进行角色扮演 Soon we’ll role-play
然后再做爱。 and have sex again.
肯定会有一面镜子，他可以在那里看到自己。 There’ll be a mirror for sure, where he can watch himself.
马几乎不再来了。 Horse hardly comes around anymore.
他的妻子难产而死 His wife died giving birth
所以他现在是单身爸爸。 so now he’s a single dad.
小狗还无可救药地爱着我。 And Puppy Dog is still hopelessly in love with me.
你好吗？ How are you?
我爱你。 I love you.
好吧。 Okay.
乔娜还没回家。 Chona hasn’t come home.
她在美国一定很快乐 She must be happy in America
我还是没有车。 I still don’t have a car.
我经常想起妈妈。 I often think of Mom.
这让我很难过。 It makes me sad.
她来了又走，就这样。 She came and went, just like that.
生活还要继续。 Life goes on.
我的生活，我的幸福，都取决于我自己。 My life, my happiness— it’s all up to me.
说了又做了， After all is said and done,
我还是阿尔玛。 I’m still Alma.
妓女。 Whore.